MIKEY

I've known some friends for 8-10 years now... it's just strange how much we could change... and how close we still are... I never want to lose them.. I hate college.. it is a little to much of a starting over... I just want a handful of friends back... and I'll be ecstatic.

Summer '09.
Having it's ups a downs.
I haven't really been hanging out with anyone I graduated with, which kinda sucks.
I mean I know people don't wanna get attached but how much longer do we have with each other... It kinda sucks but I'm making as good as an effort I can to hang out with them.

Another thing... what I'm planning on doing with my life... probably one of the hardest thought processes I've ever had, but this is what I'm doing.
Mercer for 2 years.... transferring to some school where I can still commute and then I'm planning to more to California and start my career there. Big jump but I know what I wanna do.

And this sums me up on how I live my life.
"So fuck you rules man. you'll step up, you'll go down fast.
I've got to rid these of the shit that has made up my past."
Love,furry,passion,energy-the four things that sum me up.

Mikey

I am just aggravated now.... I call you littereally everyday and i get no response.... You tell me you are going through a hard time....well i want to help you! I don't want you to be upset and you still don't call back. I don't understand how someone who was once your best friend can completly throw you out of there lives....

I am having SO many ups and downs this year so far.
School is going great other than the costume situation but I'm not letting it bring me down and I'm not letting her get to my head.
I really need to watch what I say around people stay, like I've gotten so much better with it, but still need some work.

It's also just amazing how somethings just change, I remember when the cast list went up I couldn't wait for it to start... but the rehearsal process seemed to be taking FOREVER! Now the show needs to be basically finished in two weeks because we start our 6 o'clock run throughs the first week of march, and until this show, the word tech week has never scared me until this show... I'm so nervous...
Another the thing that's change is that I feel like my class in general are starting to grow up, and it's awesome. I think it's because all the one's nobody liked left for early dismissal lol but it's like crazy, oh and yeah... I'm nominated for prom king... WHAT! Hahaha

It's just this year is going so much more different, For the first time I feel like I have no regrets because everything I've been wanting to do... I have done, from giving blood,to telling people to vote for me for King (haha), to actually doing Mr.JMHS.

I just wanna know I did everything I could take make my senior year great.

My year horoscope for 2009

It's time to celebrate yourself, Taurus! You are pouring yourself into your life's mission and rejuvenating yourself with abundant thinking, which attracts great things to you. You're diligently creating a public arena where opportunities will emerge for you to be a teacher or messenger. Engagements for speaking, writing and sharing your thoughts will open up. Other people will be inspired by your enthusiasm and insight, and will support you in accomplishing your goals.

Taurus's excitement radiates more than ever this year, bringing with it a magnificent energy the world has been lacking. As you embrace the power of your heart and spirit, you are allowing yourself to transform and align with a universal energy source. You discover the space for your creativity to flow and abundantly bring the truth of your being into the world. Your focus on your connection with a higher purpose brings out the best in you and refines your self-expression.

You appreciate all the expansive shifts that are taking place in your life, and you are learning to break up routines and old patterns of rigidity. This allows you a new level of awareness and acceptance of your ultimate purpose. Pay attention to what has heart and meaning. Express your truth and you will advance. You will find avenues to bring your talents and belief systems to philanthropic endeavors. By the end of the year, you will be able to slow down a bit and find more time to enjoy the new you that you have created.

Why do i feel like you are changing.... all I wanna do is talk to you and you won't even pick up you're phone or call back.... I think I'm done wasting my time.

So I had a great audition on Wensday. Went in and did what I could.
Got a call back. Did well read a shit load of times but of course your not 100% till the list is up.
And I got to the school at 6:30 so no one would ruin it for me and I got the lead =]]]]]]]

I've never been soooooo happy in my life.
My dad finally said wow.... good job(ass) haha
It hasn't fully clicked yet though that I'm singing 11 songs.
That I am one of the main people telling a beautiful story.
That for once in two years... people are going to be behind... me for once.
I just wanted to say PHEONOMNIAL job to everyone that was at call backs, we definitly gave all the judges a run for their money.

I couldn't be happier and I can't wait for this to start.

COME SEE ME AS RADAMES IN AIDA MARCH 12,13,14,15. =]

This is the could be the last time I audition for a show..... and it scares the living shit out of me.
I love performing, it's what I do..... but my parents don't understand.
So not only do I have to work just as hard and prove it for myself but my parents as well.
And after at least one show I want my dad to say..... good job even though I can't stand him. He's never said that to me after a show and/or acknowledge me.....
This week could kinda almost help me with my future.... and it's crazy.
I have so much stress right now and so much pressure on my soldiers.
But all I can do is just show Ms.Somodi, and the rest of the judges my best.... and if it's not what they are looking for..... then I guess I'm done...... for good =/

There has been so much stuff going on in my life....
And it's been making me think a lot.
I don't really like myself sometimes....
I don't like the way I react to somethings.
So.... I'm trying my best to change me basically.
I'm going to try and keep the talking behind the back on the DL.
I'm going to try and stop cursing.
I basically just wanna be a better person.
I don't want to take life fore granted in anyway.
I just want to live life with no grudges and I just want to live it up.
It could be my last year here... I don't know yet, but if it is, I want it to be the best 7 months of my life.

Why is this happening.....

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Wow.... thinking about it all today.... if they got this over me, I must reallly fuckin suck.

So, the summer is almost over.... a.k.a. band season is starting... yeah.
This has probably been the best summer EVER!
I've never been so happy with my social life.
I've been loving everyday. I don't even know why, I'm sitting at home half the time... but yeah it's great.
Little random facts:
I saw the Dark Knight.... 3 times
LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Heath Ledger.... OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! Fuckin phenomenal, no I'm not saying this because he's dead, he sank so much into that character like it's crazy, he's someone I look up to after that no shit. If you can play a teen heart throb, a knight, a gay cowboy, and the joker, and do it GREAT, your fucking amazing in my eyes. Haha
Then tonight I saw Pineapple Express.... all I have to say is I love pot heads, they are a great time hahahaha I'm going to start hanging out with them more, just because they are hysterical. Hahaha
So yeah... oh and um this certain person is a good time I've been talking to... it's been very 'exciting' =]


PEACE!
mikey

So... summer '08
Is probably the best summer yet.
Seussical was probably the best experience in my life.
I met and became close with so many people.
It's amazing, I've known some people for years, then I meet people that I know for not even a year and I feel more comfortable around them... it's just strange.
But yeah, if you didn't go see Seussical, you missed out, it was the best show I've been in yet. Like bar none.
Then band... I love not caring. Tehehe =] Honestly fuck it, it's my last year, I'm not gonna let it bring me down. I'm going to make it fun for myself I don't care how serious anyone is gonna take it or how many are going to hate me.
Then if you don't know, my mom closed down the restaurant.... thank god because the next day there was an eviction notice lmao but yeah so now I'm jobless and probably gonna be working at McDonalds or Burger King by Great Adventure... I applied at 10 places and not one called me back because the band schedule is so fucking hectic...
But yeah that's my summer so far, my mom's home now a lot! I can probably have more people over now, so don't be surprised when I'm asking like 10 people to come over. Haha

Mary DiGangi's Sweet Sixteen tonight =]] PEACE OUT!

Why aren't you even talking to me.....

It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone, but we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives."


I love my friends.

Sometimes, I find myself having way too much time to just think. But, for some reason I always seem to not be able to stray away from thinking about the future and what it has in store for me, and all of us. Mind you, when I get lost in my own thoughts it can get a bit dangerous in my head. But whenever I think about anything, the future always seems to work its way to the forefront. Not too many people can actually tell you what's going to happen to their lives in the future. Nobody really ever knows, and that scares the shit out of me, because... nor do I. Most kids will graduate High School, go to college and " learn on the highest level ". After that they will have good jobs putting on a tie and working a nine to five every day. That's the easy way out. But what about us dreamers? Those of us who never wanted that for ourselves and strive to be different, strive to do something different, something extraordinary. Those of us who want to be musicians, movie stars, directors, producers, artists, professional athletes, and so on. I, for one, am not what you would call 'academically inclined' so that whole graduating high school, going to college, and living the typical American life style is very far out of reach for me. And too be quite honest, I don't mind one bit. I'm not the person who wants to fit the "mold" of what is expected of the youth of America today, nor could I, if I even wanted to. I just want to do something in my life, that makes me more happy than I ever thought I could be. I want to do, exactly what I want to do, and I want to do it for me. I'm quite glad not to be the kid who's father forced him into sports and who's mother would whip him for not getting straight A's. The kid who's dreams were considered rubbish by those who had birthed him. I'm very happy with myself. No matter where I go, or what I choose to do with my life, I'll know its because I chose for it to happen that way.

I want to live for me.

So apparently it's been 11 weeks since I've updated so I think it's time.

So everything in my life was going great, I felt I had almost everything I've wanted....
until today....

I've never been so hurt in my life.
How does he beat me of all people.
I have 10 times the experience he does and he get's it over me.
It's just not fair at all.
It's not the fact I didn't get it, it's the fact that he got it over me....

I mean how is this gonna look, a 6 foot fat ass with a costume that makes you fatter, 
with someone who is 5'4 and no where near fat. How is that going to work at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!